Que sera sera

just tired... as always, here I am wondering... where am I going? what is next to happen? Que sera sera... seems that even my brain has ran out of words to describe how I feel now... lost as ever, mad, just feeling astray, exhausted, I don't know... yup the feeling of fading into oblivion is so intense, sadly though there's just no way there.... haaayyyy!!!

Butterfly in Me

As the drupalys gets out ofthe cocoon

A butterfly came into life

beautiful, vibrant and flying high

Gone are the traces of yesterday's cruelty

Pains, strifes and tragedies left behind

Has crawled out from tunnels of darkness

Again venturing to the world she was once in

This time, stronger and with a better view of the world

Life can never hold life at a bay forever

As always time will turn the tide

The beautiful vibrant butterfly

Was once an ugly caterpillar

So slowly i'm moving forward

Struggling to crawl out in my cocoon of darkness

My heart smiles and leaps with joy

As I await the day that i'll become a butterfly.

Flavorful Post!

Lost for words? Not really, just dont know where to start and how to write this.... let's add some flavor to this post...

In short ang makakaintindi lang kaining post na ini su tataong mag Bicol, so dai parasenciahan na lang tabi kita... hehehe... Dakulon kaya ang nagriribataw sa kaisipan ko sa mga oras na ini, mga bagay asin tawo na dai ko aram kung arin ang dapat na inuton. Maribong talaga, haay lintian na pagkabuhay ini...

Anyways Dios mabalos sa taong ini na nagpapaulok saku inspite and despite kang mariworokon na pangyayari sa sakuyang pagkabuhay. Aram ko dai mo maiintindihan asin mas marhay na ngani na dai mo intindihon ta pati ika mariribatawan lang... hehehe... pero dakulang pasasalamat talaga saimo... an mga bagay na dai mo urog naaaraman dai mo na aramun pa ta nganing maging mas simple sana, sabi ngani take it slow... so slow, asin kung saen man an papadumanan kaiyan maabot na lang an duman. Dakulon ka pang mga bagay na urog sako na dai mo pa naaaraman, dae mo na muna pag piritun, luway luway sana, maabot na sana ang tamang oras na gabos iyan maladlad na sana sa atubangan mo without exerting much effort... pag abot kang tamang panahon!
Sa ngunian gusto ko munang hanapon an sadiri ko... iyo baga nawawara ako, inda man saku kung saen saen kaya ako suminurok, iyo lugod an, dai ko na natandaan su mga dalan... hehehe, pero kidding aside, sa mga oras na ini gusto ko munang mahanap an sakuyang sadiri, maaraman kung ano talaga ang minamawot ko, haluyon ko na dapat na ginibo ini alagad pirming may second thoughts kan mga nakaaging panahon.... maski ngunian igwa pa man giraray alagad kaipuhan ko na talagang gibuhon ini, for my own sake na din. Habu kong pirmi pirmi na lang mabalik ako asin magmumukmok ta dae ko ginibo ini. Dakulon pang mga bagay ako na kaipuhon ayuson, aram ko dai ko kayang sabay sabayun alagad kaipuhan na may mapuunan na ako ngunian, maski padiit diit lang tanganing igwa akong tapuson.

Sa ngunian maugma na ako, again, salamat sa pagpapaulok mo saku asin mabalos sa pagtao mo nin time na dangogon an mga sentimiyento de mayor ko... mabalos talaga. :-)

My World

I live in a world
completely different from others
While some prefer beauty and madness
I chose solitude
While some craved for visuals
I took passion for my soul
I havent got beauty like that of Venus
Nor intelligence equal to that of Einstein
But I have my pen and paper
Who brings me to a different world
Or transport me to a place
Where pixie dust exists
Where fairies are real
And where my dreams come true
And though my world may not be
as colorful as that of yours
Yet, its very essence of me exist
on it
A world I'm never going to trade
with anyone!

Flying Tyrant

Maybe this isn't just really my day.... I might have woke up at the wrong side of the bed, I'm pissed, bored, uncontented and at this point wanting to walk out badly from here... if only I could do that... well maybe I can if I'd be willing to be charged with work abandonment, unfortunately though I don't have that guts to do that...

The situation where I'm in at the moment is not just annoying for me but I despise it... Sometimes its so freaking frustrating when you take the back seat and just observe where you are heading when you are so used in taking the controls of the steering wheel... but what the heck why would I take the wheels when I dont even like where I'm riding nor where I am heading.! Grrrrr!!!! Well someone told me that I can make the situation fit for my liking instead of me fitting into the situation... if I'll do that, would it be for the best or would I be seen as manipulator once again...hahahaha... the fuinny thing though is that I haven't even tried manipulating yet, and some people say that I am already doing that. I was just wondering... what more if I indeed manipulate, what will become of me? A tyrant? I can imagine that.

Well, like what most people use to say, if I want something I can really be a sweet doll, but if something turns against my way and it ticks me off, I can be the most bitchy person whom you can encounter. Honestly, I am one of the most resilient persons you can come across... I can make myself fit into a situation though I despise it, proof is where I am right now, since I need my job for financial reasons, I'm forcing myself to stay. I can be a mirror of the person I am with. Yes I am a reaction, if you're nice to me, then I'm nice as well but if you're a brat, I'm ten times bratter than you are.

And right now, if I wont hold my temper there will be flying monitors around here. Grrrr.... What a great day for me!

Solitary Stares

Solitary looks stare at me
butterflies sommersault in my stomach
As uneasiness clouds my senses

You smiled from across
My heart got out of its place
My brains almost got disturb

Distorted thoughts
Painted images of yours
Dances haughtily around me

Then, you've taken another look
This time smiling at me
As your eyes merrily twinkles

And so everything brightens
Flowery scents fill the air
And new sense of happiness envelops me

Simple Complexities!!!

Gees... a sunday and here I am still stuck at the office, thanks to my imbecile Saturday shift...
Anyway, let's just say that I have a not so quiet shift today, tonight I mean. It's been a while since some one has openly asked questioned me about my love life... hehehehehe, maybe out of curiosity, that's why the matter has been brought up and honestly as well, it has been a while since I have talked to anyone about this... unfortunate of me, today is the day that I would be asked not just by one person but by a group of people... hehehehe controversial? Quite simply....

Once and for all let me clarify where I stand and what my real status is....

Okay, so I am SINGLE, yup you are reading it correct, I am definitely single to the truest meaning of it. I am not married, I do not have a boy friend and neither am I commited to anyone and yes I am a single mom and I am proud of the offsprings I have as they are the most wonderful gifts I've ever had inspite and despite of the hardships I'm going through. I may be living a complicated life now, most people would even think that the situation is absurd, but I've got no explanation about it, just a simple answer which is "the situation asks for it". It's as plain and simple as it is. Remember guys and gals, when situation seems so complicated, go back to the rule of thumb, it's just a simple matter. Go back to basic.

Curiousity kills the cat, and some times questions are better asked directly as the answer maybe handed down to you in a platter, rather than laboriously fishing for information. Why ask Jack when you can get the answer straight from the horese's mouth?
Indeed, what a great Saturday shift this was!

Just tired....

Just tired, feeling out of tune with my surroundings... and I thought this would be the last day of work, unfortunate of me, we were ask to do a mandatory over time... sigh... gone were my plans of taking a saturday off... just cuddle up with any book I could get a hold of, no long sleep and sigh.... I wish I could play with Bobet and Tyke a little longer...

Well that's life, who knows something spectacular awaits me on my saturday shift... Hopefully!

Friday Mood!!!

Hello everyone... it's Friday once again and I'm on a Friday mood. Yup, I feel so freaking lazy in coming to work, yet, here I am doing same old stuff... I feel bored, wasted and I don't know, it's just that I'm wishing I'm inside my room curled up with an Agatha Christie. Just some time for myself... It's been a while since I've done that and had a time for my self alone.
I don't know if I am that technically idiot or some wizard or witch has something to do with my inability to log in here in blogspot.... several days ago, I couldn't log in to this site.... some cookie thing is reponsible for the restriction so I opened an account with multiply. But now, here I am.... I'm back... after almost 6 months... miss you my sites... i've got two sites here actually, and I was able to access the other one yesterday.

It's just that somehow I feel at home here a lot.... and Owen, I read your post about transco... just great, so your ever imbecile government has finally finished the process of privatization. I wasn't actually surprise, since Rache has confirmed that it was already on the process, the last time we've seen each other. What would be next? PGH? UP System? Hehehehe that would be the day. Let me see how all the Iskas and Iskos will react... my beloved Alma Mater, falling in the claws of an enemy!

What the.... well this is my personal blog, made just for sentiments, those are national issues, I'd make a pass on them on my other site... I still have the rest of my shift to do that hehehe... I'm still bored though... well, I just have to get through the next 6 hours of my shift and viola, it would be weekend... wehehehehe