Maybe this isn't just really my day.... I might have woke up at the wrong side of the bed, I'm pissed, bored, uncontented and at this point wanting to walk out badly from here... if only I could do that... well maybe I can if I'd be willing to be charged with work abandonment, unfortunately though I don't have that guts to do that...
The situation where I'm in at the moment is not just annoying for me but I despise it... Sometimes its so freaking frustrating when you take the back seat and just observe where you are heading when you are so used in taking the controls of the steering wheel... but what the heck why would I take the wheels when I dont even like where I'm riding nor where I am heading.! Grrrrr!!!! Well someone told me that I can make the situation fit for my liking instead of me fitting into the situation... if I'll do that, would it be for the best or would I be seen as manipulator once again...hahahaha... the fuinny thing though is that I haven't even tried manipulating yet, and some people say that I am already doing that. I was just wondering... what more if I indeed manipulate, what will become of me? A tyrant? I can imagine that.
Well, like what most people use to say, if I want something I can really be a sweet doll, but if something turns against my way and it ticks me off, I can be the most bitchy person whom you can encounter. Honestly, I am one of the most resilient persons you can come across... I can make myself fit into a situation though I despise it, proof is where I am right now, since I need my job for financial reasons, I'm forcing myself to stay. I can be a mirror of the person I am with. Yes I am a reaction, if you're nice to me, then I'm nice as well but if you're a brat, I'm ten times bratter than you are.
And right now, if I wont hold my temper there will be flying monitors around here. Grrrr.... What a great day for me!
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