Thursday, October 9, 2008

UP kong mahal....

Karamihan ng mga tao eh hindi pamilyar sa eskuwelahan na ito. Mas madalas pag narining mo ang UP dalawang campuses lang ang papasok sa isipan mo. UP Diliman at UP Los Banos. Mawalang galang lang po, madaming campuses ang bumubuo sa UP System. May UP Baguio, dating UP Pampanga na di ko na alam ang pangalan ngayon, nawala na sa pamunuan ng UP system, UP Miag- ao na matatagpuan sa Iloilo at ang pinakamalaking UP... tama po di po Diliman ang may pinakamalaking land area, pangatlo lamang po sila. Me UP Tacloban din at ang pinakamamahal kong Alma Mater ang UP Manila.... opo dalawa po ang UP campuses sa NCR, ang UP Diliman at ang original na UP, sa Manila... Para sa kaalaman ng lahat ang orig na UP ay itinayo sa Ermita Manila, pero ng dahil sa Ikalawang Digmaang Pandaigdig karamihan ng mga kolehiyo sa Manila ay inilipat sa Diliman, maliban sa Kolehiyo ng Medisina. Sa paglipas ng panahon, maliban sa nasabing kolehiyo, muling umusbong ang iba't ibang kolehiyo, College of Allied and Medical Professions, College of Dentistry, College of Pharmacy at ang pinakamamahal kong kolehiyo na naging tahanan ko nung ako ay nasa UP pa ang College of Arts and Sciences... ang tanging kolehiyo na napabilang sa samahan ng kursong me kinalaman ng medisina... hehehe o mas malamang naligaw?...

Ganun pa man, pinakamamahal ko ang kolehiyong eto, oo nga malamang kami ang me pinaka maliit na campus sa buong UP system, pero maraming bagay ang itinuro sa akin dito. Mga pagkakamali at kasiyahaan na tumulong na humubog sa pagkatao ko, at mga prinsipyo na magpasahanggang ngayon ay gumagabay sa akin... Kalimitan, marami ang nagsasabi na masyado daw masyado daw akong radikal, lalo na sa trabaho ko ngayon... Di po ako radikal, natuto lang akong ipaglaban kung ano ang dapat at kapag nasa katwiran ka, isang malaking pagkakamali ang pananahimik. Nakakatawang isipin na sa panahon ngayon may mga tao pa ding nagtatas ang kilay pagka babae ka at nagsalita ng di umaayon sa ginagawa ng karamihan.Di ako feminista, lilinawin ko lang, pero malaking pasasalamat ko na nag aral ako sa pamantasang ito na lubos na humubog sa akin, na panindigan ang prinsipyo, ano't anuman ang kahinatnan nito. Maliban sa pagiging isang magaling na mag aaral, itinuro din sa akin nito kung papaano mamuhay pagkalabas sa pamantasang ito. Hindi po nerd ang mga nag aaral dito, katulad din ng ibang estudyante na libro, kaibigan at kalokohan, sa tingin ko nga mas bukas pa kami sa kalokohan eh... kung ang ibang pamantasan eh mahigpit na tinututulang ang Fraternity at Sorority, sa amin, malaya kang makakapamili ng sasalihan mong samahan.Noong una rin di ko ito gaanong maintindihan, bakit nga ba ganun? Sa paglipas ng panahon sa peyups natutunan ko na hindi lang neto ituturo ang kabutihan. Nakahapag din sa harapan mo ang kasamaan.... hindi ka nila itutulak papunta dito noh, di ganun ang ibig kong sabihin... bibigyan ka ng babala na pag ginawa mo ang bagay na ito, ito ang kalalabasan niyan. Binibigyan ka ng kalayaang mamili at panagutan kung anuman ang kalalabasan ng desisyon mo. Ginagawa kang isang responsableng tao na paglabas mo ng pintuan ng unibersidad ay matuto kang manindigan at di isang hamak na sunod sunuran lang. Di lamang ito itinuturo sa UP Manila kundi sa buong sistema ng UP, sa lahat ng campuses na meron kami... Di ko sinasabi na walang masama na taga peyups, ang totoo peyups ang nagluluwal ng pinaka mabubuti at masasamang alumni, pinakamatatalino at pinakatuso... gayun pa man hindi ko ito ikinakahiya, isa lang ang ibig sabihin nito, ibinigay sa iyo ng UP ang lahat ng pangangailangan mo para mabuhay ka bilang isang tao. Kung magiging mabuti ka o masama ikaw na ang me gawa noon at hindi ang UP. Siguro, kakaiba nga ang UP at ang ipinagkaiba namin eh hindi kami sumusunod sa agos ng pangyayari, bagkos pinapanindigan namin kung ano ang pinaniniwalaan naming dapat at bukas sa kritisismo mapa maganda man o pangit. Di ka gagawing robot na de remote control bagkus ginagawa kang isang nilalang na marunong mag isip at tumayo sa sarili mong mga paa.

At amfot@@@ ang hirap pala mag sulat ng blog na tagalog lahat... weeeh!

Unfinished....

Distorted thoughts
Images of the past
Blurring my visions
Pain strickles from within
Giving a momentary panacea
On my apathetic soul
Aghast
Flabbergasted
Exhausted
Mixed emotions
I no longer know
how i feel
Nor do I know
what to write next....

Wednesday, October 8, 2008

Choices?

Funny, how coincidences happen... I've been actually feeling cross as some things have actually gone out of their places, then out of the blue while blog hopping I was able to come across an entry about choices....

True enough lots of choices have been laid down before us... Choices made us of who we are now. Lots of times I have been confronted with choices and some of them have brought me both good and not so good outcomes. There were also times when I regretted those choices I have made, when i wished for time be turned back...

My Dad has always told me, that I have to be extra careful when I make choices, because it is the out come that I have to deal with. Nature's law of motion of course, for every action, there is a reaction.

At the moment, I was forced to make a choice of momentary status quo, sad to say because there are people who depend on me whom I can't let down, because they are yet incapable of taking care of themselves and I brought them here. I'm keeping my spirits intact inspite and despite of the tumultuos situation here in the office.

I know at this point of time I'm making the right choice, it is not easy, in fact I have to drag every vein in my body just to be in an accepted state get up! Haayy I know soon this will be over and I that's the silver lining I'm holding on to.

Indeed it's all about choices...

Teka nga muna sino ba si CHOICES? Ah ewan!

Unending...

It should have been the least if not, NOT at all my problem. It's tiring too, doing blogs and your whining about thesame old thing. Haaay, but here I am again confronted with this matter..... ranting about same old shit! Same issues from work... loads that should not be our concern were passed on to us, same practices that up to now remain uncorrected.... haaay I guess the complaints would till this space will be totally filled up, worst the space may not even suffice and yet the ranting wont still end... And though I know that this problem is unending I might as well end up my log for this rant so I may be able to attend to other matters worth writing about!

Thursday, October 2, 2008

Jammed thoughts...

I can't help but smile despite the approaching storm that I have to face by the end of the day... actually it is the start of the day since it would be around 5:30 am butsince that would be the end of my shift... it commences the day for me as well... hehehe

Thank's God, and to all the forces of the universe who convenes with the truth my sincerest gratitude.

Haay ... the flow of my thoughts suddenly stops.... hehehe pause for the mean time.

Wednesday, October 1, 2008

Incomplete...

To where the roads are leading
Still that is not known to me
To where I am going
That I am not sure of
To everything that I have gone through
I don't know what I haven't been into yet

The sun shines brightly
And it was so bright,it blinds me
And it was so hot, I got burnt
Astrayed as before, now I'm even more lost
Everything is thesame, yet so unfamiliar

Across the horizons
I've heard a quaint cry
Putting me in some trance
But as to what it was saying
I haven't had a clue...

Back to Grail Hunting madness!

Confusing, it looks like the answers are always sugar coated with another question... As if it's a clue to another clue to another clue...

Funny cause it has been a while since I ve meddled with the holy grail and the monumental and mind twirling history of the masonry. Now I'm back on my shoes, trailing or rather here I am again hoping to finally stumble something that would be of value.... Weeeeh... This is amongst the times when I wish that I'd be a millionaire.... Grrr...

To anyone who has something concrete or anything valuable related to grail hunting and the masonry, I appeal to you guys and gals that may you be kindhearted enough to send me some information.... I would really appreciate it and you may send it at fierylarkspur@gmail.com. I would really appreciate all the information and help you can give me.