Awakened

So this is how it feels... after the longest time I finally feel this. Well I guess that's the normal process...If you have been giving for the longest time, if you have been understanding and all of those remained unrequited in the end the giver will feel tired. Honestly somehow I am glad I am now feeling this, it means that I am getting there. For the longest time I have tried to understand even if they were beyond understanding, I gave and gave even if I wasn't getting anything in return. Finally now tiredness envelopes me.

This time its gonna be me first...I may sound selfish but that's how it should really be. All those times I thought of others first. I've tried to put myself behind even if it is something I wanted the most. This time its not gonna happen anymore unless I'll be getting exactly the same gesture.

Well I guess that's the proper chain... give and take! It isn't always giving and giving and giving without getting anything in return. I have learned my lesson. And I am just really grateful that this is how I feel right now. It means that the tide is turning.

Finally, I have awakened.