Where The Light Touches The Earth

Life they say isn’t fair. It maybe true or it may not be. I can not really honestly say that life is fair at all. I have my share of laurels and foul ups. Maybe we need to be treated unfair at times so that we may learn how to be fair to other people. Whenever I wake up each day, I can’t help but noticed that time has indeed flown so fast. I can not help but reminisce my childhood. I was young and vibrant then, so full of hope that the world will welcome me in banquets. When I have grown a little older though, I realized that life isn’t a fairy tale. Well, even fairy tales have villains, don’t they? It was then that I found out that the world is not as friendly as I thought it would be. There are lots of faces in this world. I have met people who have been great to me, some of them I have kept my friendship for the past two decades. They are the people I know I can trust my life with. And even in distance they are the friends who are happy with the success that I have had, if ever there was and they are also the people who help divide the sorrows that I had. There are also people I have met in passing, some of them left good memories with me and there are some people who, however short the stint they had with my life had left an undeniable pain and discomfort. There are also those friends who had turned to foes and vice versa. At this point of time, I am once again in the crossroads… or should I say highway? I am still a traveler, like I was once, still unsure of where the roads are heading. Somehow there is this unexplained loneliness from within me. I feel unappreciated and left out. This feeling that I have where in however hard I tried; whatever I do will never be enough. I am not enough. People sometimes need an assurance that they are being loved. Hilarious as it may appear but as the old adage goes, the essence of life is in loving. People love to be loved. People need other people and we need to be needed as well. It’s a fact of life. It may be symbiosis in an ecosystem. And as a member of the homo sapien, I feel those feelings. It’s a typical causal-effect relationship. I understand other people but I also want them to understand me. I don’t know! Geez, I maybe on my emo- mode right now, as they call it or I’ve just been quite really sensitive the past few days. I just feel really sad, not to mention this back pain and fever coupled with headache and colds that I have for quite a few days now. It’s really draining the energy out of me. I just want to take a rest. I just want not to worry about anything else. I hope I could be a child once again and just be carefree. Well, that definitely is quite an impossible wish… At this state, I just want to be at peace. I don’t want to be hurt in any way. I don’t want any imbalances at this point. Changes are inevitable though if indeed there are some things that need to be changed and if it will cause discomfort to me in any way, I just want to bring it on and get it over with. I have been through a lot so I am quite confident that I will get through it. Life they say never offers an assurance that everything will always be alright. Along one’s journey, something is always bound to rock the trip. Oh well, what matters there is you get to your destination quite safe. At this moment though I just want to be in a tranquil state, somehow though something stirs from beneath. At this point I am too weak to oppose it. If it is how the constellation aligns their path, then I’ll just try my best to get out of the way and not get too scathed.

Then one day it will rearrange its way very much aligned to my path and perhaps I’ll get the chance to get to go to the mountain where the light touches the earth… For now, I just hope that everything will be alright or should I say everything is alright.